My Release Therapy

A song/poem that I wrote.
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This is my release therapy
Look at what you made me
I loved you once!
I want you to
Understand what I went through
Yet I can never be with you
Because I can never trust you
And now I’ve found, what I want
Still thoughts of you my dreams they haunt
But with out you, I wouldn’t be
What I am, you made me see
What should and what should never be
I want to miss you
Want to hold you
But if I have to see your face again I just might have to break again
A trainwreck is what I am
Do you even give a damn?!
You did this to me, are you proud?
So go on girl, sing it loud
You’re popular, you know you’re cool
Know every corner of the school
But something’s empty, something’s gone
I know it’s wrong
But I don’t care
You will never find peace there
A hole forever in my chest
Think you’re the best?
I know the truth
Like a painful ache inside your tooth
I would never go away
You know too well I had to stay
You’re a thief, a dirty crook
Made every move, by the book
So then you stole my heart from me
You locked it up and crushed the key
But now I’ve found the one for me
Now my disease will let me be
You’re still sad, all alone
You had it all, lovely home
Great boy, talked on the phone
You still have that, but don’t you see?
It was you who pushed me!
With your words and crooked lies
“I like you too” Gave me a high
Brought me up to break me down
I was dream-life bound
So scream at me when you read this
Tell me I’m an evil witch
But I don’t care, I’d swim the sea
Because you meant the world to me
And you’ll never know how you made me feel
I think love now is so surreal!
So groan and moan and hate me girl
Just remember our little whirl
And what you did to ruin it
You had this once, you could still now
And if you do, I’ll laugh once and take a bow

And I, I walked away
Heard you say
“Your broken life will never change”
Forever scarred, by your heart
I’m gone now girl, you aren’t what I want

You know you left me dying here
I can’t believe I’m crying here
Led me on, told me things
I would’ve bought you diamond rings!
You lied to me
Tell me the truth!
Did you ever want me there?
Next to you, my feelings bare
Did you ever really care?
Got up, you walked away
Face down, there I lay
Now I live my life in fear!
I have someone, I hold her dear!
But I don’t know if I can do it
All that crap, you put me through it!
The stuff you read, see on tv,
Sweetheart, I’m scarred! Why can’t you see!
Do you regret what-you-did-to-me?
I wish you can you be hurt like me!
The things I said were from my heart!
You tore it up like junky art!
I was your friend
Until the end!
Stuck with you ‘round every bend
Stayed with you, my hand to lend
I loved you kid!
Look what I did!
In return, what did I get?
I guess I shouldn’t throw a fit
My entire life,
You held me twice,
Screw it, I’m going off
I was kind
All you did was scoff
Love: I didn’t want to find
A friend; I needed
Our friendship was heeded
By you, your words
Or the lack of them, stung me like swords
The storm, I felt we could weather
Fuck it, I could write forever
But you’d never grasp it
How I felt, can’t even map it
You know you’ll never understand
Never again will I hold your hand
Forget it, I’m done with this
Your face, I will never miss
I was ALWAYS true to you!
You know what babe? I’m through with you!

And I, I walked away
Heard you say
“Your broken life will never change”
Forever scarred, by your heart
I’m gone now girl, you aren’t what I want

Can’t hold it in, any longer
Thanks to you, I am stronger
Your mistake, my gain
My hate, your name
I know it’s wrong, it shouldn’t be
You permanently hurt me
And every time I go to sleep
I think of you and try to weep
But I can’t, no sympathy
For the girl who killed me
For love is life, without is death
And I was close, to the edge